Sometimes I Think About It
nikki 
“Its so cruel what your mind can do for no reason.” -Arlo Parks
TW: Suicide Ideation
Sometimes I think about it
Whether I want to or not
It’s just something that happens
Intrusive are some thoughts
And quite rude as they threaten
With danger they are fraught
They don’t always play fair
Or deal with reason as they ought
So sometimes I wanna talk about it
To someone who holds me dear
To a special one who loves me
Someone with a patient ear
But I find it’s not that simple
Such conversations are not so clear
All that talk of death and sadness
Is sure to bring up fear
Then sometimes I need to talk about it
But who wants to hear me whine
With no therapist around
I’m texting the crisis line
Still trying to be a stronger person
Still trying to convince myself I’m fine
Still trying to lay it all on the altar
Guess I’ll wait on help divine
Sometimes I need to talk about it
I may need a helping hand
Because sometimes I think about it
But you wouldn’t understand
For crisis support and prevention call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1800-273-8255 or text the Crisis Text Line at 741741